Sittin' on the dock of the bay..

Well, have things been interesting. Random. Exciting. So many, many words to describe what I'm feeling. I began my new job as a hospice RN case manager- and I love it. Learning, absorbing as much as possible, and walking around with confidence- as much as I still get chills thinking of that last job, which was horrifying, I know that this job is meant and I'm already respected and give respect in this new job. A side job has randomly occurred, in a wonderful fashion! I've been doing some pin up modeling for a few different projects.. and I LOVE IT! I'm a 2013 calendar pin up model.. for not just one, but two calendars.. and potentially some more projects in the works. I guess it's true, when you stop looking in life, life miraculously happens.

On the home front- well, my new apartment (well, almost 3 months now) has truly become a home. My amazing boyfriend moved in with me.. and myself, him, and our baby girl Maltese puppy, Mia Amore, are one happy family <3 Cooking on a weekly basis..laughing, relaxing, and most importantly.. smiling. I haven't felt this is, well, never. I am blessed & am thankful for every single moment and breath I take. If you asked me a year ago what I thought or where I thought I'd be now, I'd say hospitalized, jailed, dead.. and it wasn't as bad as it could of been. 

I've finally realized the terrible, ill treatment that occurred while I was there (there as in the last 3 years) and I am now ready to move past & enjoy my future. I love my life, for the first time in a very long time. Well- cheers to the future.. and I wish everyone the same. La dolce vita <3

Eat, Pray, Love..

It's been awhile since I've blogged. Had to take sometime to get life in order again. I'm now happily settled into my own mecca, my area of zen. My Mia & I have grown together through out these life changing moments.. and I've learned a lot about life & myself over the past few months. And that's not including what I've learned over the past 3 years. "When you lose balance, you lose power". Yes, that's from eat, Pray, Love.. (which is currently playing in the background). I've watched that movie a lot over the past 2 months. The fact that it's a true story, a real life that occurred and being told by Elizabeth Gilbert, helps inspire & encourage me, everyday.

So since I've written last, I've continued on with my BSN- 6 classes in, 7 to go. Got a wonderful job offer- a real dream job, that I start in a few weeks. Made a home in a brand new place. Found my inner happiness again. Found love, that I didn't know existed. I also began cooking. Yes, I've mastered my family homemade madinad (marinara for those who don't understand what I just wrote), and the family gravy! Made limoncello and orangcello.. which turned out wonderful. I've learned how to make a real home, one where I don't have to worry if my bed is made right away, or if the trash can is full (although.. those that know me.. I am a clean freak). I've learned the beauty in keeping to myself, only surrounding myself around those that deserve it & that I want to be around. I do not have to be around anyone that I do not want to be anymore.

Currently- Eat, Pray, Love is on in the background..a glass of homemade white wine sangria is sitting next to me while I type. I will be writing more frequent. I will end with this.. if your not happy in life, whether it's your job, your residence, or even your relationship- get out, change it, because life is way to short. Happy weekend : )

                                                                           & I am one of these girls.. <3                                            I will use it and not let it go to waste.