A side note from old blog..

The blog I wrote that spoke of me saying that I feel I've pressed "pause", like in a video game. That I'm afraid to press play because I'm scared of what's to come. Either change or not. Either good or bad. Well, I've pressed play.. and I'm sure hoping that I win the game..

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So I've come here on a journey. I do believe I'm going through a "quarter life crisis". From piercing my ears, to then my belly button, now adding a new amazing tattoo that just gives me the strength I have been missing by just looking at it. Questions that have been running through my head have been.. stay in career or start over, work on marriage or run for the hills, or just plain run away and join the circus?! I'm sure I could work on being a tight rope walker.. or a clown (which isn't far off from what I'm feeling). I've been going through trials and tribulations over the past, well, year. Job gain, body giving up on me, job loss, marriage, troubled marriage, regaining my strength after losing job.. and so it goes. I've come here to just..talk, well I guess type. I don't want to continue to bother the people I love with my self-loathing and self-doubt. Recently, I moved back to my mother's for a few weeks, returned back to my home yesterday. I must say, in those some odd weeks, I found myself again. I smile, laugh, hell I even prance around dancing to the music. So, here it goes..let's give this a try....