I glady surrender myself to you..

As I sit here, on a deary Wednesday morning, my puppy in my lap, hot tea next to me, with Body and Soul blaring from my iPhone by Tony Bennett and Amy Winehouse. What a pleasant morning. Well, it's been awhile since I've blogged, but I'm back on the saddle.  I made my move, my big official move. I'm on my own again..starting anew. Scared as hell.. but I've fallen on my ass a few times to figure things out. Waiting on a very important phone call from a hospital I've always wanted to work for..and also waiting to here from the lovely state of NJ to see if my loan went through so I can finish this BSN.
..Ya know I must say, since I turned 23.. I've learned a hell of a lot about myself, people. relationships, where I want to be and what I deserve..I know you will continue to learn as you go on about life, grow older, etc. The one thing I now know is.. YOU CAN'T PLAN SHIT! You're plan will either happen, or not, or turn out completely opposite. I'm happy, excited for starting my life again, but at the same time sad, disapointed, this wasn't in my plans I say over and over. I still wish I could go to Bali and meet with Kiut Liar, and ask him where my life is going. Perhaps get a drawing that explains everything begins at the heart, and have four feet to ground you in this life. I also want to go to India and study with Buddhist monks. Well.. I guess all I can say is, here's to the future, wherever it may lead.. let it be a good one.